Let's Go Back ~ 2-19-08

You call me on the phone

Say you just wanted to hear my voice

You say I'm the only one

You wouldn't leave me if you had the choice

So let's go back to that old playground

Where we met ath the swing when I fell down

You were six and I was five

You helped me up and dried my eyes

You smiled at me, and played with me

Now let's go back to our first date

You got to my house two hours late
I was on the porch in my new red dress
I looked at you, you were a great big mess.
We took a drive, laughed 'til we cried...

So let's go back to my backyard
My sweet sixteen, and I was fallin' hard.
You took me down to walk by the creek
We had our first kiss, and my knees went weak.
You said "I love you," and then I did too.

Now let's go back to your twenty-first.
You made your speech, and you thanked me first.
We took a walk, went back to that park....

I sat on the swing where we met that day.
You gave me a kiss, and then we prayed.
Then you got down in front of me
With tears in your eyes, said "Will you marry me?"
I said "Yes, my dear," and you held me near.

Now let's go back to that starry night,
We met in the park, and my dress was white.
Our dads prayed over the two of us
My sister sang, then they all watched us.
We said "I do," I was next to you.

Now we're back in the park, another starry night.
Our daughter's up there, and she's dressed in white.
I whisper, "I love you," as she says "I do."
You grin at me, and say you still love me...

The Struggle of a Christian

Sometimes it's so hard to do what is right
I know in my heart that I should delight
In doing His will, in seeking the LORD
I need to be still, and just hear His Word.
I need to put down my earthly desires,
Or I will just drown in my dirty mires.
What holds me back from doing Thy will?
Is it my lack of courage and skill?
I want to stand out; be a beacon of light
Which ne'er will go out, e'en in darkest night.
Why can't I just do what I know to be right?
I know what to do, yet I can't get it right.
Please help Your child, so lost and alone,
Not to be wild, but to kneel at Thy throne.
I love Thee, oh LORD, so I'll go on my way-
Reading Your word, ne'er ceasing to pray.

The Moment Our Eyes Met

Our eyes met.
I found myself lost in deep blue eyes that rivaled the ocean in beauty.
I felt, for the first time, that I was truly seen.
It was as though those piercing, crystal blue eyes had penetrated my very soul.
I felt as though he could see straight through me: See my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, my failures.
I felt completely stripped of all pretense, disguises, masks, everything that keeps people from truly knowing me.
At first, it was startling; scary even.... But then liberating.
For once, I wanted someone to see me.
I wanted him to know me: My hopes and dreams, faults and failures.
I wanted to tell him everything and more.
I wanted to share my life with him.
But most of all, I wanted to know him, to see him.
I wanted to know his hopes and dreams, likes and dislikes, strengths and weaknesses.
I yearned to know his innermost thoughts and feelings.
I longed to be near him, to learn who he truly is.
He awoke feelings in me I'd never felt before.
He ignited emotions I never knew existed.
When I looked into his eyes, the entire world around me ceased to exist.
I saw an eternity of hope and possibility:
Life, love, joy, happiness, fulfillment.

You Are Amazing!!!

You are amazing.
You are "positively perfect in every way"
You are loving.
You are awesome.
Your love never fails.
You never forsake.
You always say the right thing.
You never forget what you were supposed to do.
You forgave me for unforgivable sin.
You showed me the light.
You told me i was something when others said i was nothing.
You called me your child.
You helped me when i had no help.
You healed me when i was sick.
You comforted me when i had no friends.
You heard my prayers, and you answered.
You've done what's best for me my entire life.
You saved me when i was unholy.
You purified me in your grace.
You loved me before i knew you existed.
You plans for me far greater than i could ask or think.
You created the WHOLE UNIVERSE.
YOU DIED FOR ME THAT I MIGHT LIVE!!!
For all this i am eternally greatful.
THANK YOU FOR BEING GOD.

Full

God is awesome! He's filled me with His love:

He is holy; He's reigning up above.

He came and brought to me new life:

He healed my heart, cast out all strife.

He died for me, that I might live!

He wants me now to freely give

Of what I have, of who I am,

Of everything He's blessed me with.

He knows my thoughts, knows who I am:

He comforts me, and helps me live.

He loves His child: He always will;

I was defiled, but now I'm whole.

He touched me with His healing hand:

Not just my body, He healed my soul.

He's with me right now; in my soul, in my heart:

He's promised me He'll ne'er from me part.

I LOVE GOD!!! He's my help; He's my strength:

How long is He faithful? I can't say the length!

I love Him more dearly than I'd ever thought possible.

He's awesome and great, unbeat and unstoppable.

And so I shall say: Tomorrow, today:

"My Jesus, He reigns! I shall never doubt again."

Empty

I shiver, yet I feel no cold.

I sweat, but feel no heat.

I bleed, yet I feel no pain.

I am numb; without sense or feeling.

I feel nothing, do nothing.

I have no purpose, no meaning.

Where are You?

I am empty; a lifeless, useless shell of a person who was once full of life, love, and happiness.

I can't go on without You.

Just tell me where You are.

I'll Get You Back/I'll Forgive You

Hey! Why'd you go and do that to me?
Hey! What did I do to deserve this?
You're driving me mad.
If I had one wish...

I'd get you back for the things you did to me
I'd make you feel all the pain inside of me
I'd get you back for the things you put me through
I'd get you back for the love I thought I knew
I'd get you baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!!!!

Hey! Whad has happened to us?
Hey! What went horribly wrong?
I thought we were in love.
I guess I was wrong...

I'll get you back for the things you did to me
I'll make you feel all the pain inside of me
I'll get you back for the things you put me through
I'll get you back for the love I thought I knew
I'll get you baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!!!!

Hey! Why'd you dump me like that?
Hey! I thought we were for real.
Please come and explain
why you tore out my heart
I loved you for real
and I gave you my heart

I'll get you back for the things you did to me
I'll make you feel all the pain inside of me
I'll get you back for the things you put me through
I'll get you back for the love I thought I knew
I'll get you baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!!!!!!

But I know if I don't forgive you, bitterness and hatred will consume me.

So even though you don't deserve it...

I'll forgive you for the things you did to me.

I'll forgive you for the pain inside of me.

I'll forgive you for the pain you put me through.

I'll forgive you for the love I thought I knew.

I'll forgive you.

Still Untitled Poem ~ 1-19-2008

The LORD my shepherd is; He's my Guardian, Guide and Stay

He's the light of my life; He's the strength of my song;

He's the one and only path, my chosen way.

The LORD my savior is; He's the light, the truth, the way

He's my comfort by day, he's my song in the night

He's the one and only path, my chosen way.

Jesus Christ, who died for me when there was no other way

is the light of my life, he's the joy of my heart

He's the one and only path my chosen way

God the Father, God the Son; Holy Spirit, Three in One!

He will never forsake 'til in Heav'n I awake

He will keep me safe until my race is run.

Mighty God, my counselor All the things You've given me!

A roof o'er my head, and a warm, comfy bed

You have given me the greatest family.

Parents who resemble You; teach me what You've said to do

Love siblings and cousins and uncles and aunts

There is no way I deserve this much from you

Oh, I can't wait for that day when in Heaven I shall stand!

There I'll see Jesus' glory, that shines bright as day.

And I'll sing and shout His praise throughout the land!

This is the Time

This is the time

For a new beginning.

For all the hungry souls

To come and eat.

This is the time

To cry to Jesus;

To call His name,

And come to Him.

'Cause now

is the time!

Don't let the world

Pull you in.

'Cause now

is the time!

Put off all worldly things,

and come to Him.

This is the time

to raise our banners

to help our brothers

and unite in song

and this is the time

to fight the battle

on, christian soldiers!

Fight on, pray on!

'cause now

is the time!

Don't let the world

pull you in.

'cause now

is the time!

Put off all worldly things,

and worship Him.

This is the time

to praise Jehovah

to sing aloud

and honor him

and this is the time

to take your cross up

forget the world,

and live for HIM!

'cause now

is the time!

Don't let the world

pull you in.

'cause now

is the time!

Put off all worldly things,

and follow Him.

My Question: And God's Answer

Hey, God, I was just wondering

Do you love it when I sing?

Are you really watching me,

Watching, waiting, over me?

I want to know, for I can't bear,

The thought of losing something rare.

I love you with all my heart,

But where were you when I fell apart?

I called out, I heard no reply.

I screamed for you, I started to cry.

Where'd you go, where you couldn't hear my cry?

I needed you, yet you just walked on by.

I tried to be what you wanted,

I tried to make you happy.

I tried to be the perfect daughter,

But I never could make you happy.

What is it that made you leave me,

Sad, hurt, alone, in need?

I cry out, in anguish, in fear,

I know you hear me, and I know you're near.

Why do you not help me,

Your daughter fallen down?

I feel lost and broken,

Without you smiling down.

I cannot live without you,

Yet you won't stay with me;

I can't go on without you!

What's to become of me?

Am I to lie here all alone,

Until the journey's end,

Am I to stay here, lying down,

Without my Father and my Friend?

I cannot bear to stay away;

I love you more and more each day.

Will you not help your child,

Make her whole and reconciled?

All I want is to be like you,

To be whole and blameless and pure.

Was it really you who left me there,

Or me who left you, when I was unsure?

I know now, that I'm at fault.

I left you for the world.

I wish I'd never left your arms,

For without them, I did fall.

Will you maybe take me back,

A sinner condemned unclean?

I do not deserve the honor of life,

But your mercy and grace are free.

I run to your arms,

to be enveloped by you,

And I tell you "I'm sorry,"

you reply, "I forgive you.

"For it's not by your works,

But by faith you are saved;

I died on the cross,

to save YOU from the grave.

"I laid there suffering,

despising the shame,

And thought of you,

and bore the pain.

"For you see, I love you!

I can't even bear

To see you so tired,

So worse for the wear.

"So I offered my life,

That you would be saved:

I bore the cross,

I went to the grave.

"I love you THAT MUCH,

That I'd do anything,

And when you left,

It really did sting.

"It was hard not to help you,

but 'twas you who left me.

I had to pass by you,

And not help you see.

"But you came back,

So now I rejoice,

For the father who loses then finds again

Is always happy to raise his voice

In praise to the King who reigns on high

To Shout Glory, glory to Jesus on high."

And I sing with the angels,

I cry a fierce cry:

For Jesus my Savior

is reigning on high.

Write "HOLY" On Your Forehead

This is a poem I wrote awhile back to explain something my friends did.

write "holy" on your forehead,

make this nation stop and think--

are we really just and righteous,

as holy as we think?

we write it on our foreheads,

not to boast but to promote

the love that glows inside us,

that Satan tried to smote

We do not think that we can be

as holy as the lamb

we only wish to strike the hearts

of all within the land

We hope to show them, hope they see

that we don't have to be

aimless sinners, wayward trav'lers,

who just do not see

We want to generate a pause:

a time to stop and think:

do I live the way I should?

and practice being meek?

We feel led to show without

the yearning that's within-

to be holy and blameless, perfectly white,

totally without sin.

We wish not to be misunderstood,

to be taken the wrong way;

we only wish to make some think:

and maybe even pray

For if one sees this and they see

love shining in our eyes

it just might make them stop and think,

or make them realize

that what truly matters, what we love,

is not a thing without.

But rather someone, pure and holy,

we could not live without.

They Say Love...

They say love can be bought: I say love is a gift.

They say love is just hormones: I say love is deeper, stronger than that.

They say love is like the wind: You can't see it; but you know it's there. I say you can see the love of Christ shining in people's eyes.

They say love is weak; I say it's the strongest thing in the world.

They say love is blind: I say love sees all faults, but still loves nonetheless.

They say love can be lost: I say true love cannot ever be lost; if it's lost, it was not love in the first place.

They say that no one can love unconditionally: I say Unconditional Love is the only kind.

They say love is proud, boasting: I say love is humble.

They say love is all about the physical stuff: I say love goes beyond anything physical.

I say They have never known true love; so who are They to say what love is??? we do not really know what love is until we have experienced the awesome, unconditional love that God has for us. He loves us so much that He gave His unly begotten Son that whosoever believeth in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life. I pray that They learn what true love is, and are speechless in awe of the awesome god we serve. He is the LORD of all love, and no one can love more fully; more deeply than he does.

John 14:21 He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.

John 15:12 This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.

John 15:13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

1 Corinthians 13:4 Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;

7 Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

8 Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.

Colossians 3:14 And above all these things put on charity, which is the bond of perfectness.

1 Timothy 1:5 Now the end of the commandment is charity out of a pure heart, and of a good conscience, and of faith unfeigned:

1 Timothy 4:12 Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity.

1 Peter 4:8 And above all things have fervent charity among yourselves: for charity shall cover

2 Peter 1:7 And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity.

Revelation 2:19 I know thy works, and charity, and service, and faith, and thy patience, and thy works; and the last to be more than the first.

My Heart's Desire

There is a place of sure relief: a place where kindred dewll;

A place where all have firm belief in He who broke the spell.

I want to go to that great land; to see my Savior's face:

To see th'immortal angel band, in this, my Father's place.

I want to praise Him day by day; the one who died for me:

I want to worship: sing and pray; for all eternity.

I love the LORD with all my heart; He died on calvary:

He shields my soul from Satan's darts; He's ne'er forsaken me.

He gave his life; He died for me; that I might live with Him:

I'll ne'er forget His perfect love; I long to live with Him.

A Parting Hymn

I loved you so dearly

I can't believe you're gone.

I miss you so much now:

how can I go on?

I'll trust in Jesus

to lead my way

'Til we meet in Heaven

on that bright day

He'll be my comfort,

He'll guide all my days

'Til we meet in Heaven

I'll miss you always

But I know you're in a better place,

where you'll never hurt again;

I'll miss you every day,

until we meet again.

I'll think of you daily;

remember the good times.

I'll wonder "What if?"

and cry for me sometimes.

But someday soon we'll meet

in Heaven to part no more.

And we'll sing and shout His praises

on Heav'n's blissful shore.